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Number 100 ! Noughties Stories....

Here's my 100th Blog....

Had a bit of a laugh with Mark today.. We were reminiscing about when he proposed to me and what an odd thing it was... 

I was just 18 and, well, we were about 12-13 months into our relationship. I had rented a house, a little 2 bedroomed thing; my very first house.

I left home, of course, and moved in with mum for about 7 months or so, before I managed to get my own place. So, here I was.....

Mark had moved in with me, literally weeks before, and things were going great.

Anyways, this one night I had been out working and Mark had stayed up to chat to me. Well, after a spot of late supper and talking we went upstairs.

We made mad love....slow...fast.....hard....sensual.....

....after finishing up we lay in each other's arms for a while before Mark got up to visit the bathroom....

He was gone a while.....I thought that he was writing his will...

Anyways, he calls me in. I was beginning to fall asleep...so...I begin to stir....get my shit together and put my gown on and sleepwalk over to the bathroom.

"Martika, Martika! Come over here....quick, girl!"

So.....I scurry....

Through my half closed eyes I notice Mark down on his knee, in his boxer shorts, with outstretched hand, grabbing my hand and saying...

"Martika, will you do me the honour of marrying me?"

"W-what?"

"Will you marry me?", he asks again...

I'm confused, in shock....nervously laughing inside to myself as I had thought that he was going to show me something gross like his poo sample! Mark can be something like that, at times....plus the fact that it's way to early to process all this information....

Mark begins to sound scared....

"I've asked your dad, it's ok. Well, what do you think? WILL you marry me?"

"Errrh.....ummmm......this is soooo unexpected, babe. C'mon, get off the bloody floor. Of COURSE I will marry you! Now, let's get to bed, I'm bloody knackered...."

To which we did, and snuggled for the rest of the night....

I distinctly remember thinking 'the little shit! Fancy asking my dad for my hand in marriage? Bet Toni thought he was nuts! Ain't nobody doing that shit these days. Guess it's an 'old' thing, what with our age difference. Oh well, I'm getting MARRIED!!!!!!'

At the time I was raking in shitloads of money in my job; I had established myself and was pulling loads of punters nightly, so consequently, we could pay for the wedding and stuff pretty easy....and, naturally, we arranged for it the next year....


Just makes me laugh thinking back that he was going to show me what his shit looked like....

How wrong was I ? * giggles*

:-)

Martika x

Musings On Being An Alcoholic...

Alcoholism is a very strange disease....

Since 30th December, 2011, I have stopped drinking.....

Let's preface this a little; a brief résumé of my thoughts and feelings on alcohol.

Anyone reading my previous blogs will know my history and my family. My mum was born from her 15 year old mum, and mum gave birth to me when she was 14. Suffice to say that my grandmother was still very young - in her 40's and 50's - when I really knew her.....

My grandmother, Sue, lived a very debauched life; drink and drugs like crazy. Think Keith Richards....yeah, THAT kind of level. She was the 'outsider' in my growing up. My parental father disliked her substance abuse and her moral code. Likewise did my parental grandmother.

So, I towed the line. Leading a normal life. But Sue was my hero and she drank loads and load. She always looked sexy and acted really confident. All attractive attributes for a growing teenager like me...

I started my drinking 'career' when I was 14; pretty tame really. But, when I left school, at age 16, I left home and just hit the bottle hard.

From the odd glass of wine with my mum, when I was still at school, to soon powering away to a litre - or more - bottle of vodka per day. I wanted her lifestyle and to be as cool as her.

It was a gradual thing for me, something that just crept up on me...

If only I used my brains....

When Sue would come over to visit, me and her used to power drink down the vodka and have a great time together; have a laugh, have some fun, y'know?

I'd try and match her, drink for drink. It's funny, I didn't quite realise at the time that, because she also hit the coke, that would sober her up enough so that she could drink more. She drank more, got merry, took more coke and sobered up! And so on and so on....

Drinking was something that I would do from the time I would wake up until the time I slept. Sure, I had breakfast in the morning , cereal and a coffee, before I touched a drop....so I thought I was in control of it rather than it being in control of me...

In the meantime I got married and started a family. Husband thought that it was quite normal for me. He, of course, being a modest drinker himself.

Conceiving a baby was hard. I thought it was just my body. Seems, with hindsight, that it was because of all the drink screwing up my hormones....

Naturally, once I was pregnant I cut down....well....a little. That should have been when the little red light warning went off in my head. 

I couldn't totally stop drinking....

Consequently throughout the years I found myself in increasingly dangerous situations. Putting myself at risk and worrying my family and friends.

This happened one too many times.....

I originally stopped drinking, not by choice, but by illness towards the start of Jan 2011. I had severe, and debilitating, swine flu. I nearly died; for about 4 weeks it was touch and go. I couldn't eat, drink, wash or use the toilet. My husband had to help me with that....

Once better I went back to the drink; not drinking quite so much, but still drinking all the same. I developed some back pain over the years and, at this point it got really bad. I saw a consultant; long story short, if I didn't stop drinking I had only 8 months or so left alive!

Talk about a jaw dropper!

I was pregnant again, with my 3rd child, when my grandmother passed away from her lifestyle in November. I grieved badly, hitting the bottle for an almighty blowout. Luckily my child was born ok a few weeks later and I kept to the bottle for the next few weeks....

I was tired; I was ill; I was broken; I was upset. I had hit rock bottom.

Truth is that I was fuckin' bored of feeling drunk and rubbish....so, in the early hours of the aforementioned 30th December I turned that corner....

The first few days were pretty awful; just feeling like gunk and I can remember that my breath just felt.....bad. Likewise my skin; I could smell the alcohol coming from my pores....

My head felt just like the end of the apocalypse! And so it stayed for at least the next few weeks. I slept a lot, or at least tried to. Pretty hard when you're a mum. Always busy, always tired.

I got dragged into exercise, which did help my body feel better... y'know, getting those hormones kick started and keeping you on the straight and narrow.

I had some narrow escapes too; you've spent your whole life, or about 8 or 9 years in my case, reaching for a bottle....just automatic, y'know?

That's scary....

And, of course, there's times of stress and hardship when you find yourself thinking about drink......

That used to freak me out. Actually, I found myself shaking and crying my heart out more times that once because of this.

You feel weak; vulnerable....emotional.....like your skin is too thin...

It feels very irrational.....

....and then there's the dreams; fuck! You dream of drinking....so sexy and hot....and you wake to sobriety...and feel that disappointment...

....and so those emotions go around again....

You learn to pray each day; each night you thank The Lord that you've not gave in, not touched a drop. You take 5 mins to remember what exactly the doctor said to you if you drink again....then you go to bed...

Morning time, you make a little promise to yourself to keep sober, again you remember what the doctor said, and you carry on your day.

The hardest part? Apart from admitting that you have a problem, or indeed realising where that problem originated, is to ask for help....

Yep, ASKING for help....

You will realise that people are generally only too HAPPY to give you some support. All you need to do is ask....

:-)

I got back to eating a bit better and drinking plenty of water.

Having a good support system is pretty essential.  Hard when all your friends drink....

But....make them aware of your issues and they'll watch your back; won't get drunk around you and won't try to tempt you with drink....

That's good friends.....

Was I ever tempted in a bar? Nah, you just say to people either the truth or that you're driving so they'll understand about all the soft drinks.....

Being around drunks? Now, that was hard at the start. There's a very real, and very major, sense of jealousy; I wanted to kill some of my friends for their ability to drink.....

But, over time, you realise that you have a personality and that you were sociable BEFORE the drink so you'll be the same AFTER you stopped drinking.....

It took me ages to get to that level. But it's part of the journey, learning about yourself.

So..... 2 years 7 months later....

I'm a happy little bunny.....

....and glad that I don't drink....

Sure, it's a battle but for the last 2 odd years I have been successful, so just another day should be easy....

Think and ACT positive and you'll attract positive....

So far, so good.....

Martika xx

My 'Band Of Bitches'

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Just A Thought.....

Just a thought.....

Y'know, some people have got strange ideas about my relationship with my husband; they either have this 'Alpha' female view of me with a submissive husband, or this view of him being especially kinky....

Let's have a look at them both, eh?

The alpha female? Well, think that is an accurate assumption of the kind if girl I am....but a submissive male? That would be like I flaunt it in his face and he dislikes it.....crushing his spirit? Nah, how can anyone do THAT to someone you're suppose to love? That part certainly isn't me. The submissive part? No, Mark gives me shit for stuff all the fuckin' time! He's always on my ass over something or other....so...passive? I think not!!!

Now.....kinky?

Hmmmmm......we have our moments, I guess, but he's not overtly kinky....and neither am I! When people talk about cheating wives, or hot wives or whatever the fuck they call it, they automatically think of 'cuckolds'.....and, for the majority of people that we've chatted to, that makes them think of the male partner eating the cum from her partner's 'bull' from her vagina....

Mark so would turn his nose up at that! That's kinda gay, right? And Mark is only interested in women, specifically me....

So.....where DO we stand?

Ok, Mark has always known about my hooking and sleeping about....so that was 'normal' for me.....what he enjoyed is me, getting my rocks off on my punters and letting them cum in me, and coming home horny.....

Me horny is THE big turn on for him.....

He's always loved the 'look' of prostitutes; what they wear and shit, so that's the only kink he really has.....

Me being spunked in so often a night makes me nice and wet for when he enters me.....

....and, he's nice and big downstairs so that helps matters too....

So.....husband and wife; streetwalker and lover.....

That's who we are....

;-)

Martika xx

Issues.....

Recently all hell has broke loose....

Sarah telling her parents that she's now 16 and works as a prostitute, for me, has crushed her parents....

I can remember the problems that I had when I told my dad that I had been hooking. We didn't speak for, shit, years! And that really upset me.

Naturally, my case was different; my own mother was a hooker and so, although she wasn't over the moon about it, she could at least accept that I wanted to be just like her....

My grandmother? Ha, fuckin' ANOTHER story altogether!! She was delighted!!!!!

Anyways.....so Sarah's folks are upset. She's kicked out of the house. Luckily she's able to stay with Amber - her best friend - and Jenny.

But still, Sarah's mum has been causing problems with my little operation; she's been screaming and shouting at me in the streets....when I've been trying to work....

Not good for business.....

She - I 'think' it was her, but I have no proof - wrote 'SLAG' in big red fuck off letters, painted on my house....took a lot of scrubbing to get off, that did....

She was threatening my girls too....

Well, that fuckin' did it!! Me and April went over to her house and made sure that she got what our point was....and we got it across well!

Suffice to say that if anyone wants a fist fight then I can punch the lights out of anybody, no problem....

I did leave her with some physical signs though....

....but I made sure to tell her that Sarah was alright and, like when I was in the same predicament, wanting her parents to accept that this is what she wanted to do....to stay friends, keep a relationship and, maybe, agree to disagree in the future.....

I told her that every young girl needs a mother, and that every young girl deserves a father....

I've not heard for either her mum or dad since....

Martika x

Should Have Wrote This Earlier!!!!

Been meaning to write up this shit earlier, since April in fact, but life and crap get in the fuckin' way and before you know it, boom, it's July!!!

So....better late than never!!

This dates back to February....

So, Carla, the slag that I have working for me had been working the brothel this particular night. Her hubby came back to our house, complete with the other slags that I had worked on the corner with. It is, after all, a Saturday night and that means a little bit of a party with shitloads of drink and drugs....

We get back - Debs, Sarah, April, Candy, Jenny, Penny, Amber and respective partners - and Mark is sorting out some nibbles and shit for the girls after a heavy night hooking.

It was cold out so......we all needed something to keep us warm!!

Sarah helped April and Mark with the food and soon we had our fill...

We had the music on and, what with fair amount of drink and drugs a party spirit was underway...

Later during the night Tom was banging away at Carla; the slut knows her place. She knows her legs are always open unless I say so...

So he was having her in front of her husband. I think he was enjoying the show!!

Soon Tom cum up her - bareback of course - and said.....

"She's not a bad shag for an old slag, is she?" , to which he laughed.

Hubby looked a bit uncomfortable....I glanced over to Mark. I gave him a little sign and he okayed me....

I told Carla's man that he could fuck me....seems like the fucker didn't take much coaxing to do that....

Pretty quickly he was trousers down 'round his ankles and , with my leather skirt up, he was in between my thighs and with his cock in my well used cunt....

He was fucking me hard....and I looked over at Mark...he had a little smile on his face....I looked over at the girls and, Candy especially, was grinning ear to ear...

I was moaning away, in heat, and he was grunting away....

.....and little Miya came down for a glass of fuckin' water!!

She saw me lying on my back with my hands around my sex partner's back - and he was still banging away at me, oblivious to it all - and she smiled and said....

"Daddy, is mummy hugging and kissing this man?"

Mark acknowledged this and led her out to the kitchen to fetch a drink of water. They were out a short while before coming back in again and Mark took her upstairs....

Shortly after, Carla's hubby came and so that was my 12th load of cum of the night....

Carla wasn't happy, but I told the bitch to shut the fuck up and that she does what I say and that I don't want her to think or feel; that's for me to do...

She nervously gulped and, y'know? Never mentioned it again...

The rest of the night - now morning - went on without much hassle; the girls were full with food and blitzed out of their tiny fuckin' minds!

Later that day I chatted with Mark about Miya; seems like she was happy to see mummy at work and that daddy said he was proud of her.

She's not talked to her sisters about it but, when she's been chatting to me she's saying that I looked happy as I was getting fucked and that she wants to be just like me....

I hope so....

Martika x

BREAKING NEWS!!!!

Breaking News..

Amber's pregnant!

She's been aiming to get 'knocked up' by her punters this year and, she says, she didn't expect to get caught so soon....

So, she's aiming to have a girl, naturally, to follow the family line....but says that if she's having a boy she'd put it up for adoption....

Congrats, babe!! Hope you stay fit and well and deliver a healthy baby...

Love,

Martika xx

Stuff......

Been quite a busy time for your's truly....

Firstly, forgot to say that Emma has had her baby...a baby girl. Mark has spent some time with her. Her name? Not sure. I kinda switch off over talk about that bitch....

Ok, we kinda chat a little; I try to show some interest but, at the end of the day she DID try to steal my husband and that fuckin' child is the end result of that union....

Hey, I accept it....but that don't mean that I have to like it....

Whatever....enough about the bitch....

Mark and I are fine....actually more than fine....so that's ok....

Let's see....what's happened? Hmmmmmm....

Ok.....well, Mum and Kaz are fine down south....even after their move down there late last year....and the floods and shit....luckily they've not been affected like most people down there....but sure is a scary time; the worst storms for, like, 250 years or so.....

Sounds like my sis, Hope - fuck, it still sounds weird that I say that....that I HAVE a sister - is doing well and is happy...

Likewise my Samantha, my new child...

She's great....but with 3 other kids as well....it's tiring!!!

Oh......I've had me tubes tied so I wouldn't get knocked up any more. Thought it was time, y'know? 26 and 4 kids? Good job I'm not, like, 40!!!

My grandmother Sue had her daughter, Amber, in her 40's and....ok....why I am bringing this up? Don't know! Lol!! She didn't spend that much time looking after Amber, to be honest....more intent on getting shitfaced regularly and hooking.....

But.....y'know....older people and babies, generally, don't mix that well....Mum and Kaz? Ok, exception to the rule....

Fuck! Just where is this blog going? LMAO!!!

Think it's just gonna be a general rant.....

Ok...

A few weeks ago I found myself dying for a drink....nothing really triggered it.....ok....maybe the 'Emma shit'....but I was quite cool over that, or so I thought.... I was having a great day and....BOOM!...there I was, reaching for a bottle of Vodka....

It freaked me out, on the inside....the outside I tried to act calm as, well, April was around and likewise my younger kids. If I freaked on the outside it would have just scared them....

Instead, I excused myself and sat in the back room...shaking a little...

April noticed.....had a little talk....

Fuck....my sex slave consoling me over my fears of drink...who would have thought it?

But.....it passed and all was ok.....

Work has been tough, what with the weather, but I've just made sure that Candy and Sarah work harder in my knocking shop, that's all....

;-)

More to come....

Martika x

Slags...

Forgot to say, a couple of weeks ago now my Mark had an email from a guy that wanted to be a cuckold....his wife had read some of my shit and told her hubby that she wanted to hook....

Mark and I thought it was all BS, but, sure enough this slag called Carla and her hubby rocked up to the designated place we had agreed on. We chatted....

She was cute; 30 something brown hair chick. Nice figure. She said stuff about dying her hair blonde to be like '....all the other sluts..' but I veto'd that! No way!! Way too many blondes out Ho'ing!

Told her to dye it red and then we'd chat again...

So Carla rocked up to mine with her red hair a few days later...and we got her sorted....

First things first....show us your pussy; she was a bit hesitant but, as April said "Bitch, you gotta get used to showing that thing out on the streets! You can't show it in front of us then, boo, what you gonna do when a punter is fucking you in a phonebox or down an alley? Put out or fuck off and stop wasting my girl's time..."

Couldn't have said it better myself...

Bitch put out...

Bitch needed a tattoo.....so April took her off to the tattoo parlour to get her branding. Hubby wasn't happy but I told him all my girls get branded... Carla was up for it...

Fuckin' good!!

We got the bitch smoking and doing some lines of coke, which excited her hubby no end and got the bitch all dressed up in slaggy finery and sold her arse....

We made sure her first few punters fucked her without a rubber...she understood the reasons why...and she made good money...

Hubby was parked not far away and, I think, he was stroking himself something silly over it all....

Bitch loved that first night and has been out hooking about 5 times now....

I get all the cash....she gets all the cock...and he gets all the excitement....

Win! Win! Win! All around....

;-)

Martika xx

Miya

Miya.....

Had a fun time with Miya today. Been nice to just hang and to, well, show her and talk to her about what her mummy is really like...

I had a shower, after my workout...felt pooped...had my breakfast and spent time with Miya....

We talked....and lagged....and watched some cartoons....

And then we talked about playing dress up....

I have a friend in the know....this guy has made me some clothes, just like the kind that I wear, in child size....

So mummy and Miya got all dressed up at the same time in my bedroom....we chatted and I helped her with her makeup and did her hair...

Miya had a set of fishnets and a little leather mini skirt, a little bra - complete with chicken fillets - and a lovely top and shoes

Miya giggles when I sprayed her with my perfume...

"Mummy, I like it! I like it!" she shouts...

I do her eye makeup, real heavy....just like mine....

She parades in front of the mirror....

"I'm mummy! I'm mummy!" she mimics me and does an imaginary walk down the catwalk....pouting as she did so....

She smiles.....I smile. My daughter acting just like me...

She tells me she like the smell of my cigarettes so, as I am smoking, I gently blow some of the excess smoke to the side of her face....

She likes that....

I get her to sit down beside me as we chat about what mummy does...and where daddy fits into things...

I tell her that mummy spends her time hugging and kissing men, many men, every night....and that's how babies are made. Mummy didn't know who made Miya, but that just means that she's a special girl. Mummy likes to hug and kiss other men....

Daddy? He loves mummy hugging and kissing other men....and he loves his special girl.....daddy and mummy have fun...

"Mummy loves hugging and kissing?"

"Mummy is THE BEST at hugging and kissing, baby."

Miya again giggles and whoops....

"I want to be just like you mummy! I want to hug and kiss men!"

"Babe....when it's time, then you will be just like mummy if you want.."

She hugs me.....

I am happy.....


;-)

Martika xxx

Happy New Year!

.....and welcome to 2014!!

This is also my 90th Blog....

So.....where were we? Oh yeah, I had little Samantha and since then it's been a case of getting myself healthy and fit....having gained a little baby fat....

To that end I have had my auntie, Amber, training me. Boy is she tough; giving me shit all the time and making me push harder.....as if "Insanity" isn't bloody well hard enough already! So I've been sweating off the pounds before Xmas and, eating quite sensibly for a change, had a healthy Xmas....

As per usual I went to Midnight Mass on Xmas Eve. I always go with my mum, usually, after working my shift on the corner...so this time it was different. However, appearances ARE important so I dressed in my usual hooking gear....gotta keep up appearances, right?

Mum, Karen and Hope came up on Xmas Day....very early...and so it was great to have them over. They were staying over the night and heading back on Boxing Day.

Mum and I did the cooking and Mark and Kaz kept the kids entertained....Amber and Jenny came over and, along with Candy and April, it was a lovely time....

Miya got a lovely new bike from us; she enjoying riding around....whilst Jasmin, Suzanne and Samantha had dolls and things. Miya had gone on a bit about having an iPad, which Mark and I felt was too adult for her....she was a little pissed at that, and all because some of her school friends have them....

Now, not sure if people know but me and Mark feel that kids don't play enough outdoor and do physical things....rather than sit down in front of a screen and....spazz out...

We've told this many times to Miya....and....grumpily....she understood...

So....anyways....lots of food and drink for everyone, except the kids and me, and some nice board games afterwards.....mum won the Monopoly game, and Amber beat everyone on Trivial Pursuit...

Bloody smart arse!!!

We also had a great game of Twister too! The kids had one at the same time....

It was down, predictably, to mum and Amber, although I came 4th in that (Karen beat me! :-( )...with mum winning!!! Miya just about beat Jasmin in the kids one...

Boxing Day was a relaxing time......

Only complaint was not much on the television....quite disappointing this year...

Mum went early to spend time with one of her friends - Hi Geoff! - and so it was just Mark, Me, the kids and April and Candy.....still, nice time....

We checked out the sales during the week and New Year's Eve was spent toasting in at home; we had the kids up with us to see in the new year too....

Hopefully the next year will be a great time....

Tonight I will be out hooking; the first time since I had Samantha....

Really fuckin' looking forward to it....

;-)

Martika xx

Sunday, Sunday

Interesting time today....

The first time since giving birth that I, along with Mark, have been out with all the kids....

Push chairs and all that shit...

The day's been a little cold, but not freezing, so we all went down to the big park just outside town and fed the ducks and watched the people go by....

Some courting couples, some walking their dogs and stuff....and quite a few families....

We must have spent a couple of hours out checking on the ducks and it was fun watching Jas and Miya fighting over who attracted the most ducks when they threw their bread out....

Kids eh?

Suzanne had her eyes bulging out....she got very excited - and animated - over seeing the ducks....little Samantha was just shocked, taking all those sensory things in...

Afterwards we went into town for a hot chocolate and milkshakes - Mark and Miya had the chocolates, me and Jas and Suzanne had the milkshakes, with Samantha having some juice - and then a lovely walk back home.....

Sometimes it's just nice being off, from work, and enjoying all the little things in life....

Y'see, hookers can lead pretty normal lives.....

;-)

Martika xx

New Mum....And Other Stories....

Hi folks!!

Been a good long time since I've wrote anything on here....

Sorry!!

Two reasons; actually, more likely 3 reasons; firstly, EP is going to shit! In all my life on here I've never known it this crap! Fuck, it's so boring and.....just purely non conductive to excitement!!! So.....sort the fucker out, EP !!

Secondly, I feel that nobody really gives a shit about me on EP anymore....hey, no biggie; I'm not out to be the 'most popular', but I just feel totally alone on here at times....

Thirdly, has been a busy time.....

On 15th Nov I gave birth to my 4th daughter, which we named Samanatha after my mum. It's been an interesting birth....actually an interesting pregnancy!! Usually the pregnancies have been mainly fine - a few rough spots but that's it - and the 'dropping' of the child has been a little hard or too exciting.....

This time, however, it's been pretty fuckin' rough throughout the pregnancy....a seriously hard start, and tough times in the end....and I was fully expecting this baby to have a tough time coming out......only, it wasn't!

It was a piece of piss!!

;-)

Baby Samantha, born at the weight of 6 lbs 3 oz, came after only a few hours....pretty shocking...and a natural birth too!! No cutting up or anything like that...

However, I had a few problems with blood results or some other shit so I had to have drips up after given birth....so I was in for a couple of days...

Still, baby Samantha was pretty well behaved; she sleeped when she should, fed when she should....and Miya, my eldest, was proud to hold her and look after her....

Mum was over the fuckin' moon that I called her after her....

:-)

So....back home; Mark has been doting, as per usual, and little Samantha has been the talk amongst all my friends and fellow workers....had lots of attention from them, plus some nice presents too....

Work? This bitch is a little bit flabby after having the child so have to get my shit together and gonna be back streetwalking in the new year. That's the plan.

April is working her arse off to provide for me and that bitch is fucking every single night until very late.....Candy and Sarah have been working in the brothel too. Obviously, Sarah's been part time, having to fit in school too, but I've got Candy doing 16 hr days; that cunt is getting a damn good workout!!

Fuckin' good too, as the bitches have to pay for their drugs and cigarettes, right? No free ride when you work for me!!

Speaking of which, I've been sooooo fuckin' happy to be back on the gear again!!

Not doing drugs is fuckin' nightmare for me!!!

So.....I'm shooting up snack a couple of times a day, gradually increasing the amount, and snorting plenty of coke....

Like I said, I feel so much happier like that!

Mum broke the news that she's found a new place and her and Karen, along with Hope - my new sister - have moved down to Surrey this week.

That's made me quite sad, but it's near Kaz's parents so I think that's the reason why they've moved down there.....

But they'll be up over Xmas, as per normal, so that's been ok...I guess.

I've heard from dad this last few weeks too. He came over to see Samantha and thinks she looks just like Samantha, his ex - my mum - which I can kinda see....

He's on good form.....and loves the new recruit.....

Oh....funny thing; Miya was sad the other day....bit of a chat to her...and she told me that she was sad that I wasn't working at night, as I usually did. Made me laugh. When asked why she said that I was always very pretty and very happy when I went out to work...

How fuckin' right is that? Lol!!

Martika xx

My Wishes......

For some reason I'm in quite a negative feeling today...

I wished......

....that I could drink; I'm dying to have one. Ironic really as I would die if I had one! For some reason I have a really fuckin' big craving for a drink. It couldn't be my pregnancy, could it?

......that this fuckin' baby would hurry up and get born! I'm feeling very selfish but it's just a struggle moving around at times. Naturally I have my baby's welfare to think about and, as such, I have to limit my smoking and drug taking....

.....that I could allow myself to smoke more; it's hard, at times like this, for a 60 a day girl to struggle on 20 cigarettes....

......that I could allow myself to take more drugs.....

....actually, I'm dying to shoot up some smack, something that I haven't done for a couple of years. I do a hell of a lot of lines of coke, usually, but as I said I have limited that...

.....wished that my daughter, Miya, would hurry the fuck up and grow up! If she was 15 instead of just 5 she'd be on the game by now....

Think I miss my mum......

.....and my dad.....

Martika xx

Update!

Well, nothing too major is really happening with me these days...

Still, of course, hooking my arse off.....that ain't ever gonna fuckin' change! Lol!!

So....we've had a lovely summer over here in England and I've taken advantage of it... as you may or may not know, we DO love the countryside so we've bundled up the kids in the back of the car and had some nice times and walks....also, I've taken my sketch pad and drew some stuff, which has been pretty cool....

The heat HAS been getting to me; the perils of being pregnant in summer!

Ah well...

So.....me and Mark are fine. The kids? Having a blast. Miya is loving school and I miss her during the days. Now I can understand some mothers how they feel lonely when their child is at school! Never thought I'd be like that though...

I do get emotional sometimes...

Meanwhile more time for Jas and Suzanne....and they welcome their 'big sister' back when she comes home from school....and love playing together....

Mum and Karen have been down south for a bit, spending time with Martha and Bill, Karen's parents, so not had much contact with them, or Hope, for a few weeks now. Think they're going to aim to live down there at some point too....

That's sad for me....

On the positive, my dad came over last week....was nice to spend some time together and me be like a daughter.....cool.. Him and Mark get on so well these days...

This last week? Well....found myself thinking of drinking....very upsetting and, I don't know what brought that on, but I got my ass to a meeting - THEN went out to hook, naturally! - to get my head straight....

Pretty fuckin' frightening!!

On the whoring thing; I recently bought a house and set up Candy in there to sell her arse....and other parts! Lol! And, I think some people might have met Amber's friend Sarah (on here) who is also working for me. She works a few days a week and she's doing fuckin' great...

Actually, I'll have another slag - an unmarried mum called Wendy - working for me soon as well, I think. She contacted me the other day, as I was out selling my cunt, and we did a little interview...so....my 'Band Of Bitches' is growing!!

:-)

April is doing well....actually better than 'well'! God, I love that girl!! Glad she works for me!!!

Anyways...that's me!!

Martika xx

Busy Days...

Hello everyone!!

Martika's been quite a busy girl and, fuck, it seems like it's been a long time since I was last on EP....and May since I wrote up a blog!!!

Well.....a LOT has happened!!

So.....about 6 months through my pregnancy and it's funny that so many men STILL want to fuck the arise off of me.....great for a prostitute like myself, who lives for sex, and is great also for my self confidence....

Luckily my pregnancy is going on alright; ok, so not as much energy as I used to have but at least I am able to pretty much eat what I want/need to and likewise with fluids too.....the occasional feelings of 'nausea' but not sick....

That is great, after the rocky start that I had to this at the very least...

;-)

Mark and I are still tight; just really happy and totally together...

Of course, he's on here now so that's totally cool!!! Hope y'all get the chance to say ho to him!!!

Mum and Karen are doing great with their first child together - my sister, Hope - and they're getting used to the occasional sleepless night....but totally loving it!! It's funny that I'm, as the younger daughter but with 3 kids already, am giving mum and Karen advice on WHAT to do!!

Fuckin' hilarious!!!

Of course, my kids are doing great too....Miya is in Infants school, Jasmin and Suzanne and in pre school/nursery....it's lovely to educate them.....

Mark's great with Maths and English, as per his job as a lawyer, and I love music and art - painting and photo's etc - so I can help to educate them on that...

Still, what with this kid that I am carrying I'm missing smoking and drugging as much as I used to....

I really can't wait to hit the coke again hard.....not that I'm addicted, but just love the stuff!! Obviously that can harm the unborn child and I don't wanna do that!! I wanna give them the best possible chance in life....

Of course, it goes without saying that we're gonna try to bring up my next child, my next daughter, as a vegetarian too....that is VERY important to us...

Meanwhile......

April......Candy......and.......?

Ooooh...gossip!!

Ok.....here's the deal; we've got Candy in a house now, a knocking shop, and she's doing punters day and night......making me a mint!!! She's not the only one in there either...

Anyways.....April is still eagerly trawling the streets with me....and still enjoying each and every moment. She loves being my No. 1 sex slave and goes after every punter that she can. The bitch just loves it!!!!

The other? Well.........

Amber, my auntie, her best friend Sarah has recently got involved too....

She's working in the knocking shop a few days a week.....obviously having to do her exams and shit too at school, but she's pretty cool....

Funny how she's gone from being Amber's best friend, to finding out about hooking, to trying on her clothes and makeup to actually DOING IT!!!

Fuckin' great for me!!!

She's mainly there to keep an eye on Candy, but wanted to fuck some punters herself.....so.....who am I to complain for 75% of her money?

;-)

So.....that's what's happening in the world of Martika....

Hope everyone is alright....

Martika xx

Quick Post !

Sorry for not getting in touch with people recently....

What's been going on?

Well.....

Been rougher over this pregnancy than before.....and, of course, my young girls are at that stage were they're all over stuff.....hard to keep up with them....and tires me the fuck out!!

I have been vomiting more this time, and drinking water a little less....I mean, I am trying....but just finding it hard this time!!

Luckily Miya, my eldest, has been there for her mum....bless her...

So.....that's that....

Work has been great but tiring too....again, as before, it's amazing how many punters just want to bang me now I'm pregnant!!!

My relationship with Mark is , mostly, great; back together....spending time together....laughing....joking....talking....hugging....and fucking...

Mostly? Yes.....

Emma rocked up a few weeks ago and told me that she was pregnant too.....and she believes the father was.......Mark!!

She had stopped the gang-bangs and, according to her, the only guy she fucked bareback was my Mark......

So......more stress for Mark...

Still, he states that he wants to stay with me....

But it does worry me.....and tires me out.....

So that's me....

Martika xx

So .....

What's been happening recently for lil 'ol Martika here?

Well, I have kept on to a secret for a few weeks.....one of those amazing things that you can't really get your head around....one of those that MUST BE that you're dreaming....

I was pregnant!

That was the first big shock. Fuck, saying those words in this blog just blows me away....still hard to believe.....still hard to accept....

Don't get me wrong;although the plan was just 3 children no more I'm not the type of girl to think - heaven forbid! - about abortions of any of that shit! No way! A life is sacred!!! But, the shock of being 'knocked up' is major....

One of my EP friends said yesterday that it was only a matter of time '...before a slag like you gets knocked up...' again, what with bareback sex, although on the pill, with my husband and my punters on the street....

First time also that the father COULD be my husband!!!

So....it took a little time to sink in before I made it public...

It kinda coincided with Mark coming back to me....although I didn't tell him at that time....I waited until the time was right to throw that one out there!

He's loving the new/old me; the chick that's a hot MILF rather than the 24/7 streetwalker chic that I usually wear and present myself as. Truth be known it's certainly a time saver when taking Miya to school in the mornings....and I am slowly liking it....

I don't usually do subtle....only in my paintings....so it's something that I am learning about...

So.....I'm about 9 weeks gone now.....had sickness and stuff around when we were fighting....thought it was mum's cooking (?!), and turned to throwing up a bit....still doing a little of that, but not much.....

Candy, I am pleased to say, is doing much, much better. The bitch certainly isn't like April but she's getting a sleazy/slutty attitude and looks the business when she's trawling for punters on the streets.....

Still gotta keep her in line though....show her who the boss is...

April? Ah.....my dear, sweet April; loving the life and totally enjoying her sister being a part of it....

The other week was Amber's birthday.....the first time I had spent in a room with Emma, my hubbie's ex lover and was my best friend.....we got on alright...no fights...we speak together on the streets but don't act like we used to....

Pity....

Still, Amber had a lovely time.....although for a fitness freak like her, having a cake and champagne party like we did....well....she felt the sugar rush sickness for a couple of days...

Funny!!

Amber and Jenny, her partner, have spent the week in Portugal - weather hitting the 20's, by all accounts, and just chilling out and relaxing. About time too!!

The kids are great.....although I am pregnant, so with added 'bump' coming, I have cut back on my coke useage and my cigarettes....and from all the working out with "Insanity" that I have done last year I feel much more healthier and active....

That is good!!!!

So.....enjoying the sunshine and the gardens here; luckily my kids are much preferring the outdoors, don't sulk and don't want to play on computers or tablets or any of that shit; Mark and I don't agree with that stuff.....kids should be out and about running around, playing and learning....

Thankfully they think more of dolls or footballs (soccer to you Americans!) than techknowledgy.... and that's how we hope to keep it!

The sun is out and that's their playing field....

Work is going great!!! Lots of punters and lots of nice seamen going into that already knocked up cunt of mine!!! Making lots of money and getting off at the same time? What's not to love? Lol!!

So.....happy times!!!

;-)

Martika xx

Hooking...

Mark got up early to get ready for work, he looked over to me, noticed I was still awake, smiled and said "Hi baby.."

I smiled back, throat dry but managed to squeak out a "Hi" back...

I lay in bed smiling to myself; the kids were still asleep and me and my man had a nice time last night...

I heard feet creep upstairs....armed with a coffee, Mark handed it over to me and whispered "Hey, Martika babe, c'mon downstairs...."

I got up, took a few sips of coffee, threw on my robe and slippers and as he led me by the hand, down the stairs to the back bay window.....Mark pulls back the blinds in a 'Ta Daaaaa' kinda way and reveals......

It's been snowing!

Wow! Looks romantic!

He has his arm around, as I do him, me whilst sipping my coffee and him eating his toast, whilst staring out the window.......

Lost in space....just feeling so damn happy.....

Mark then left to get his stuff together - shower and things -

I had a cigarette and just relaxed....

We kissed on the doorstep and I waved him off to work....nobody else was out....bwwwwrrrrhhhhh! Cold out.....

I called down April who helped with Jasmin and Sue whilst I got Miya ready for school. We chatted...we talked silly stuff, me and Miya, and she was ready....

I got April to get up Candy and to get her breakfast sorted - vodka and toast - and I took Miya to school....In normal clothes again! Still feel strange about that....

When I got back home and sat around the table talking to April on how bitch got on. April thought that she did ok, on her first night as a prostitute, but she was a big tearful....

"Candy, luv, I own you. You do what the fuck I want, ok? Act like a bitch and I will kick the fuck out of you! As April, I have beaten the shit outta her over the time..."

April nods "But I deserved it, Boo, did't I? I wasn't respecting you, and that's wrong..."

"So.....?"

"So I got my ribs broken and my face punched. Candy, you listen to your owner, girl. You do whatever she says. It's important. You disrespect her you're disrespecting me as well...Girl, this is your new life now. Get over it, get used to it!"

Candy gulped.

I asked her, politely, to take a few hits of coke....to which she dutifully does. April smiles as Candy does a few lines.....

April and I do a few lines ourselves....

The rest of the day is involved in sorting stuff out in the house...domestic stuff...

In the evening I await for Mark to come home, all dressed casual like in jeans and a top, and we have a meal together.....talking about his day and our day; nothing really exciting here, although Miya's school were umming and arring over whether they would stay open or not...the crazy thing about the UK, a bit of snow and the whole infrastructure falls to pieces...

So....after some time relaxing it's time to get ready for work; April sorts out Candy in one of the en suite bathrooms whilst I do in another.....

I relax.....feel better looking like this; a cheap slag....leather micro mini, fishnets, over knee boots, top....and jewellery? Oh god, I miss all of that shit! Naturally I put my makeup on heavily and, looking in the mirror to admire myself as I finish off my cigarette, I smile.....this is the real me....this is me at my happiest.....

The slut - Candy join me in their finery, eager to please me with her slut looks...I nod in confirmation that she did good.....

As Candy take care of the kids, Mark and I fulfill my....ahem....usual routine; him fucking me hard, bent over the furniture, and cuming inside me....feeling his spunk run down my legs....as I get our coats, get the bitch to do more lines of coke, before heading out for our night hooking....

Obviously I kiss Mark passionately on the doorstep and we head off, April already out early - I always make her go early....

I offer a cigarette to Candy, lighting her up. She smokes now like a natural and tells me that she will do her best tonight.

Good....

April is getting out of a car as we get to our spot, she hurriedly comes over to kiss Candy and I on the cheeks and lights up a cigarette herself....

We chat a bit.....April is cold....but putting on a brave face...

Soon a car comes, we push Candy forward....and she starts her night...

The girls do good.....fuck, I do good too! Although it's snowing there's guys that are eager to fuck us sluts on the street....

I chat to mum and Amber a bit, thanking her for her help the other night...

When the night finishes, Candy has done alright money wise, April? I don't really have to worry about that bitch.....that slag does good!

As I head home with Candy, April walks with Jen and Amber.....they always have a crazy drink and drug fueled lesbian threesome every Friday....

Candy asks how she is doing......she's worried.

I tell her that she's ok.....but more hard work to come....

Martika xx

Date ......

So, last night I felt a little more composed about things....

First thing first, Mark's never seen me really in regular clothes before, only the 24/7 slut mode, or perhaps the odd wedding we've gone to...

So yesterday morning he was still saying that it '..blew his mind...' to have me dressed 'normally'! Y'see, understated DOES work sometimes!

So, the evening I had my hair up and wore a simple off shoulder black dress, a light makeup and less jewellery.....I certainly looked different...certainly FELT different!

Not sure if 'different' and me will make instant bed fellows but I'm game to try at the moment.....anything to keep my hubby, right?

Right!

So.....I acted charming.....and relaxed....

We went to have a meal out first; Mexican.....that was nice!

We laughed and joked and, y'know, it began to seem like we were just on a date together, that the 9 years had gone back.....we ENJOYED it,y'know?

Then we walked, arm in arm, over to the cinema and caught a late night showing of the new Oz movie....really good, I loved it! Mark nicked all my popcorn, mind, but it was a really lovely night....

Later, when we got in and sent the babysitter home?

We made love like we hadn't in years....love...lust....tenderness...and lots of smiles.....

I didn't sleep a wink..... Too busy staring at the man I love.....

:-)

Martika xx

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