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BREAKING NEWS!!!!

Breaking News..

Amber's pregnant!

She's been aiming to get 'knocked up' by her punters this year and, she says, she didn't expect to get caught so soon....

So, she's aiming to have a girl, naturally, to follow the family line....but says that if she's having a boy she'd put it up for adoption....

Congrats, babe!! Hope you stay fit and well and deliver a healthy baby...

Love,

Martika xx

Stuff......

Been quite a busy time for your's truly....

Firstly, forgot to say that Emma has had her baby...a baby girl. Mark has spent some time with her. Her name? Not sure. I kinda switch off over talk about that bitch....

Ok, we kinda chat a little; I try to show some interest but, at the end of the day she DID try to steal my husband and that fuckin' child is the end result of that union....

Hey, I accept it....but that don't mean that I have to like it....

Whatever....enough about the bitch....

Mark and I are fine....actually more than fine....so that's ok....

Let's see....what's happened? Hmmmmmm....

Ok.....well, Mum and Kaz are fine down south....even after their move down there late last year....and the floods and shit....luckily they've not been affected like most people down there....but sure is a scary time; the worst storms for, like, 250 years or so.....

Sounds like my sis, Hope - fuck, it still sounds weird that I say that....that I HAVE a sister - is doing well and is happy...

Likewise my Samantha, my new child...

She's great....but with 3 other kids as well....it's tiring!!!

Oh......I've had me tubes tied so I wouldn't get knocked up any more. Thought it was time, y'know? 26 and 4 kids? Good job I'm not, like, 40!!!

My grandmother Sue had her daughter, Amber, in her 40's and....ok....why I am bringing this up? Don't know! Lol!! She didn't spend that much time looking after Amber, to be honest....more intent on getting shitfaced regularly and hooking.....

But.....y'know....older people and babies, generally, don't mix that well....Mum and Kaz? Ok, exception to the rule....

Fuck! Just where is this blog going? LMAO!!!

Think it's just gonna be a general rant.....

Ok...

A few weeks ago I found myself dying for a drink....nothing really triggered it.....ok....maybe the 'Emma shit'....but I was quite cool over that, or so I thought.... I was having a great day and....BOOM!...there I was, reaching for a bottle of Vodka....

It freaked me out, on the inside....the outside I tried to act calm as, well, April was around and likewise my younger kids. If I freaked on the outside it would have just scared them....

Instead, I excused myself and sat in the back room...shaking a little...

April noticed.....had a little talk....

Fuck....my sex slave consoling me over my fears of drink...who would have thought it?

But.....it passed and all was ok.....

Work has been tough, what with the weather, but I've just made sure that Candy and Sarah work harder in my knocking shop, that's all....

;-)

More to come....

Martika x

Slags...

Forgot to say, a couple of weeks ago now my Mark had an email from a guy that wanted to be a cuckold....his wife had read some of my shit and told her hubby that she wanted to hook....

Mark and I thought it was all BS, but, sure enough this slag called Carla and her hubby rocked up to the designated place we had agreed on. We chatted....

She was cute; 30 something brown hair chick. Nice figure. She said stuff about dying her hair blonde to be like '....all the other sluts..' but I veto'd that! No way!! Way too many blondes out Ho'ing!

Told her to dye it red and then we'd chat again...

So Carla rocked up to mine with her red hair a few days later...and we got her sorted....

First things first....show us your pussy; she was a bit hesitant but, as April said "Bitch, you gotta get used to showing that thing out on the streets! You can't show it in front of us then, boo, what you gonna do when a punter is fucking you in a phonebox or down an alley? Put out or fuck off and stop wasting my girl's time..."

Couldn't have said it better myself...

Bitch put out...

Bitch needed a tattoo.....so April took her off to the tattoo parlour to get her branding. Hubby wasn't happy but I told him all my girls get branded... Carla was up for it...

Fuckin' good!!

We got the bitch smoking and doing some lines of coke, which excited her hubby no end and got the bitch all dressed up in slaggy finery and sold her arse....

We made sure her first few punters fucked her without a rubber...she understood the reasons why...and she made good money...

Hubby was parked not far away and, I think, he was stroking himself something silly over it all....

Bitch loved that first night and has been out hooking about 5 times now....

I get all the cash....she gets all the cock...and he gets all the excitement....

Win! Win! Win! All around....

;-)

Martika xx

Miya

Miya.....

Had a fun time with Miya today. Been nice to just hang and to, well, show her and talk to her about what her mummy is really like...

I had a shower, after my workout...felt pooped...had my breakfast and spent time with Miya....

We talked....and lagged....and watched some cartoons....

And then we talked about playing dress up....

I have a friend in the know....this guy has made me some clothes, just like the kind that I wear, in child size....

So mummy and Miya got all dressed up at the same time in my bedroom....we chatted and I helped her with her makeup and did her hair...

Miya had a set of fishnets and a little leather mini skirt, a little bra - complete with chicken fillets - and a lovely top and shoes

Miya giggles when I sprayed her with my perfume...

"Mummy, I like it! I like it!" she shouts...

I do her eye makeup, real heavy....just like mine....

She parades in front of the mirror....

"I'm mummy! I'm mummy!" she mimics me and does an imaginary walk down the catwalk....pouting as she did so....

She smiles.....I smile. My daughter acting just like me...

She tells me she like the smell of my cigarettes so, as I am smoking, I gently blow some of the excess smoke to the side of her face....

She likes that....

I get her to sit down beside me as we chat about what mummy does...and where daddy fits into things...

I tell her that mummy spends her time hugging and kissing men, many men, every night....and that's how babies are made. Mummy didn't know who made Miya, but that just means that she's a special girl. Mummy likes to hug and kiss other men....

Daddy? He loves mummy hugging and kissing other men....and he loves his special girl.....daddy and mummy have fun...

"Mummy loves hugging and kissing?"

"Mummy is THE BEST at hugging and kissing, baby."

Miya again giggles and whoops....

"I want to be just like you mummy! I want to hug and kiss men!"

"Babe....when it's time, then you will be just like mummy if you want.."

She hugs me.....

I am happy.....


;-)

Martika xxx

Happy New Year!

.....and welcome to 2014!!

This is also my 90th Blog....

So.....where were we? Oh yeah, I had little Samantha and since then it's been a case of getting myself healthy and fit....having gained a little baby fat....

To that end I have had my auntie, Amber, training me. Boy is she tough; giving me shit all the time and making me push harder.....as if "Insanity" isn't bloody well hard enough already! So I've been sweating off the pounds before Xmas and, eating quite sensibly for a change, had a healthy Xmas....

As per usual I went to Midnight Mass on Xmas Eve. I always go with my mum, usually, after working my shift on the corner...so this time it was different. However, appearances ARE important so I dressed in my usual hooking gear....gotta keep up appearances, right?

Mum, Karen and Hope came up on Xmas Day....very early...and so it was great to have them over. They were staying over the night and heading back on Boxing Day.

Mum and I did the cooking and Mark and Kaz kept the kids entertained....Amber and Jenny came over and, along with Candy and April, it was a lovely time....

Miya got a lovely new bike from us; she enjoying riding around....whilst Jasmin, Suzanne and Samantha had dolls and things. Miya had gone on a bit about having an iPad, which Mark and I felt was too adult for her....she was a little pissed at that, and all because some of her school friends have them....

Now, not sure if people know but me and Mark feel that kids don't play enough outdoor and do physical things....rather than sit down in front of a screen and....spazz out...

We've told this many times to Miya....and....grumpily....she understood...

So....anyways....lots of food and drink for everyone, except the kids and me, and some nice board games afterwards.....mum won the Monopoly game, and Amber beat everyone on Trivial Pursuit...

Bloody smart arse!!!

We also had a great game of Twister too! The kids had one at the same time....

It was down, predictably, to mum and Amber, although I came 4th in that (Karen beat me! :-( )...with mum winning!!! Miya just about beat Jasmin in the kids one...

Boxing Day was a relaxing time......

Only complaint was not much on the television....quite disappointing this year...

Mum went early to spend time with one of her friends - Hi Geoff! - and so it was just Mark, Me, the kids and April and Candy.....still, nice time....

We checked out the sales during the week and New Year's Eve was spent toasting in at home; we had the kids up with us to see in the new year too....

Hopefully the next year will be a great time....

Tonight I will be out hooking; the first time since I had Samantha....

Really fuckin' looking forward to it....

;-)

Martika xx

Sunday, Sunday

Interesting time today....

The first time since giving birth that I, along with Mark, have been out with all the kids....

Push chairs and all that shit...

The day's been a little cold, but not freezing, so we all went down to the big park just outside town and fed the ducks and watched the people go by....

Some courting couples, some walking their dogs and stuff....and quite a few families....

We must have spent a couple of hours out checking on the ducks and it was fun watching Jas and Miya fighting over who attracted the most ducks when they threw their bread out....

Kids eh?

Suzanne had her eyes bulging out....she got very excited - and animated - over seeing the ducks....little Samantha was just shocked, taking all those sensory things in...

Afterwards we went into town for a hot chocolate and milkshakes - Mark and Miya had the chocolates, me and Jas and Suzanne had the milkshakes, with Samantha having some juice - and then a lovely walk back home.....

Sometimes it's just nice being off, from work, and enjoying all the little things in life....

Y'see, hookers can lead pretty normal lives.....

;-)

Martika xx

New Mum....And Other Stories....

Hi folks!!

Been a good long time since I've wrote anything on here....

Sorry!!

Two reasons; actually, more likely 3 reasons; firstly, EP is going to shit! In all my life on here I've never known it this crap! Fuck, it's so boring and.....just purely non conductive to excitement!!! So.....sort the fucker out, EP !!

Secondly, I feel that nobody really gives a shit about me on EP anymore....hey, no biggie; I'm not out to be the 'most popular', but I just feel totally alone on here at times....

Thirdly, has been a busy time.....

On 15th Nov I gave birth to my 4th daughter, which we named Samanatha after my mum. It's been an interesting birth....actually an interesting pregnancy!! Usually the pregnancies have been mainly fine - a few rough spots but that's it - and the 'dropping' of the child has been a little hard or too exciting.....

This time, however, it's been pretty fuckin' rough throughout the pregnancy....a seriously hard start, and tough times in the end....and I was fully expecting this baby to have a tough time coming out......only, it wasn't!

It was a piece of piss!!

;-)

Baby Samantha, born at the weight of 6 lbs 3 oz, came after only a few hours....pretty shocking...and a natural birth too!! No cutting up or anything like that...

However, I had a few problems with blood results or some other shit so I had to have drips up after given birth....so I was in for a couple of days...

Still, baby Samantha was pretty well behaved; she sleeped when she should, fed when she should....and Miya, my eldest, was proud to hold her and look after her....

Mum was over the fuckin' moon that I called her after her....

:-)

So....back home; Mark has been doting, as per usual, and little Samantha has been the talk amongst all my friends and fellow workers....had lots of attention from them, plus some nice presents too....

Work? This bitch is a little bit flabby after having the child so have to get my shit together and gonna be back streetwalking in the new year. That's the plan.

April is working her arse off to provide for me and that bitch is fucking every single night until very late.....Candy and Sarah have been working in the brothel too. Obviously, Sarah's been part time, having to fit in school too, but I've got Candy doing 16 hr days; that cunt is getting a damn good workout!!

Fuckin' good too, as the bitches have to pay for their drugs and cigarettes, right? No free ride when you work for me!!

Speaking of which, I've been sooooo fuckin' happy to be back on the gear again!!

Not doing drugs is fuckin' nightmare for me!!!

So.....I'm shooting up snack a couple of times a day, gradually increasing the amount, and snorting plenty of coke....

Like I said, I feel so much happier like that!

Mum broke the news that she's found a new place and her and Karen, along with Hope - my new sister - have moved down to Surrey this week.

That's made me quite sad, but it's near Kaz's parents so I think that's the reason why they've moved down there.....

But they'll be up over Xmas, as per normal, so that's been ok...I guess.

I've heard from dad this last few weeks too. He came over to see Samantha and thinks she looks just like Samantha, his ex - my mum - which I can kinda see....

He's on good form.....and loves the new recruit.....

Oh....funny thing; Miya was sad the other day....bit of a chat to her...and she told me that she was sad that I wasn't working at night, as I usually did. Made me laugh. When asked why she said that I was always very pretty and very happy when I went out to work...

How fuckin' right is that? Lol!!

Martika xx

My Wishes......

For some reason I'm in quite a negative feeling today...

I wished......

....that I could drink; I'm dying to have one. Ironic really as I would die if I had one! For some reason I have a really fuckin' big craving for a drink. It couldn't be my pregnancy, could it?

......that this fuckin' baby would hurry up and get born! I'm feeling very selfish but it's just a struggle moving around at times. Naturally I have my baby's welfare to think about and, as such, I have to limit my smoking and drug taking....

.....that I could allow myself to smoke more; it's hard, at times like this, for a 60 a day girl to struggle on 20 cigarettes....

......that I could allow myself to take more drugs.....

....actually, I'm dying to shoot up some smack, something that I haven't done for a couple of years. I do a hell of a lot of lines of coke, usually, but as I said I have limited that...

.....wished that my daughter, Miya, would hurry the fuck up and grow up! If she was 15 instead of just 5 she'd be on the game by now....

Think I miss my mum......

.....and my dad.....

Martika xx

Update!

Well, nothing too major is really happening with me these days...

Still, of course, hooking my arse off.....that ain't ever gonna fuckin' change! Lol!!

So....we've had a lovely summer over here in England and I've taken advantage of it... as you may or may not know, we DO love the countryside so we've bundled up the kids in the back of the car and had some nice times and walks....also, I've taken my sketch pad and drew some stuff, which has been pretty cool....

The heat HAS been getting to me; the perils of being pregnant in summer!

Ah well...

So.....me and Mark are fine. The kids? Having a blast. Miya is loving school and I miss her during the days. Now I can understand some mothers how they feel lonely when their child is at school! Never thought I'd be like that though...

I do get emotional sometimes...

Meanwhile more time for Jas and Suzanne....and they welcome their 'big sister' back when she comes home from school....and love playing together....

Mum and Karen have been down south for a bit, spending time with Martha and Bill, Karen's parents, so not had much contact with them, or Hope, for a few weeks now. Think they're going to aim to live down there at some point too....

That's sad for me....

On the positive, my dad came over last week....was nice to spend some time together and me be like a daughter.....cool.. Him and Mark get on so well these days...

This last week? Well....found myself thinking of drinking....very upsetting and, I don't know what brought that on, but I got my ass to a meeting - THEN went out to hook, naturally! - to get my head straight....

Pretty fuckin' frightening!!

On the whoring thing; I recently bought a house and set up Candy in there to sell her arse....and other parts! Lol! And, I think some people might have met Amber's friend Sarah (on here) who is also working for me. She works a few days a week and she's doing fuckin' great...

Actually, I'll have another slag - an unmarried mum called Wendy - working for me soon as well, I think. She contacted me the other day, as I was out selling my cunt, and we did a little interview...so....my 'Band Of Bitches' is growing!!

:-)

April is doing well....actually better than 'well'! God, I love that girl!! Glad she works for me!!!

Anyways...that's me!!

Martika xx

Busy Days...

Hello everyone!!

Martika's been quite a busy girl and, fuck, it seems like it's been a long time since I was last on EP....and May since I wrote up a blog!!!

Well.....a LOT has happened!!

So.....about 6 months through my pregnancy and it's funny that so many men STILL want to fuck the arise off of me.....great for a prostitute like myself, who lives for sex, and is great also for my self confidence....

Luckily my pregnancy is going on alright; ok, so not as much energy as I used to have but at least I am able to pretty much eat what I want/need to and likewise with fluids too.....the occasional feelings of 'nausea' but not sick....

That is great, after the rocky start that I had to this at the very least...

;-)

Mark and I are still tight; just really happy and totally together...

Of course, he's on here now so that's totally cool!!! Hope y'all get the chance to say ho to him!!!

Mum and Karen are doing great with their first child together - my sister, Hope - and they're getting used to the occasional sleepless night....but totally loving it!! It's funny that I'm, as the younger daughter but with 3 kids already, am giving mum and Karen advice on WHAT to do!!

Fuckin' hilarious!!!

Of course, my kids are doing great too....Miya is in Infants school, Jasmin and Suzanne and in pre school/nursery....it's lovely to educate them.....

Mark's great with Maths and English, as per his job as a lawyer, and I love music and art - painting and photo's etc - so I can help to educate them on that...

Still, what with this kid that I am carrying I'm missing smoking and drugging as much as I used to....

I really can't wait to hit the coke again hard.....not that I'm addicted, but just love the stuff!! Obviously that can harm the unborn child and I don't wanna do that!! I wanna give them the best possible chance in life....

Of course, it goes without saying that we're gonna try to bring up my next child, my next daughter, as a vegetarian too....that is VERY important to us...

Meanwhile......

April......Candy......and.......?

Ooooh...gossip!!

Ok.....here's the deal; we've got Candy in a house now, a knocking shop, and she's doing punters day and night......making me a mint!!! She's not the only one in there either...

Anyways.....April is still eagerly trawling the streets with me....and still enjoying each and every moment. She loves being my No. 1 sex slave and goes after every punter that she can. The bitch just loves it!!!!

The other? Well.........

Amber, my auntie, her best friend Sarah has recently got involved too....

She's working in the knocking shop a few days a week.....obviously having to do her exams and shit too at school, but she's pretty cool....

Funny how she's gone from being Amber's best friend, to finding out about hooking, to trying on her clothes and makeup to actually DOING IT!!!

Fuckin' great for me!!!

She's mainly there to keep an eye on Candy, but wanted to fuck some punters herself.....so.....who am I to complain for 75% of her money?

;-)

So.....that's what's happening in the world of Martika....

Hope everyone is alright....

Martika xx

Quick Post !

Sorry for not getting in touch with people recently....

What's been going on?

Well.....

Been rougher over this pregnancy than before.....and, of course, my young girls are at that stage were they're all over stuff.....hard to keep up with them....and tires me the fuck out!!

I have been vomiting more this time, and drinking water a little less....I mean, I am trying....but just finding it hard this time!!

Luckily Miya, my eldest, has been there for her mum....bless her...

So.....that's that....

Work has been great but tiring too....again, as before, it's amazing how many punters just want to bang me now I'm pregnant!!!

My relationship with Mark is , mostly, great; back together....spending time together....laughing....joking....talking....hugging....and fucking...

Mostly? Yes.....

Emma rocked up a few weeks ago and told me that she was pregnant too.....and she believes the father was.......Mark!!

She had stopped the gang-bangs and, according to her, the only guy she fucked bareback was my Mark......

So......more stress for Mark...

Still, he states that he wants to stay with me....

But it does worry me.....and tires me out.....

So that's me....

Martika xx

So .....

What's been happening recently for lil 'ol Martika here?

Well, I have kept on to a secret for a few weeks.....one of those amazing things that you can't really get your head around....one of those that MUST BE that you're dreaming....

I was pregnant!

That was the first big shock. Fuck, saying those words in this blog just blows me away....still hard to believe.....still hard to accept....

Don't get me wrong;although the plan was just 3 children no more I'm not the type of girl to think - heaven forbid! - about abortions of any of that shit! No way! A life is sacred!!! But, the shock of being 'knocked up' is major....

One of my EP friends said yesterday that it was only a matter of time '...before a slag like you gets knocked up...' again, what with bareback sex, although on the pill, with my husband and my punters on the street....

First time also that the father COULD be my husband!!!

So....it took a little time to sink in before I made it public...

It kinda coincided with Mark coming back to me....although I didn't tell him at that time....I waited until the time was right to throw that one out there!

He's loving the new/old me; the chick that's a hot MILF rather than the 24/7 streetwalker chic that I usually wear and present myself as. Truth be known it's certainly a time saver when taking Miya to school in the mornings....and I am slowly liking it....

I don't usually do subtle....only in my paintings....so it's something that I am learning about...

So.....I'm about 9 weeks gone now.....had sickness and stuff around when we were fighting....thought it was mum's cooking (?!), and turned to throwing up a bit....still doing a little of that, but not much.....

Candy, I am pleased to say, is doing much, much better. The bitch certainly isn't like April but she's getting a sleazy/slutty attitude and looks the business when she's trawling for punters on the streets.....

Still gotta keep her in line though....show her who the boss is...

April? Ah.....my dear, sweet April; loving the life and totally enjoying her sister being a part of it....

The other week was Amber's birthday.....the first time I had spent in a room with Emma, my hubbie's ex lover and was my best friend.....we got on alright...no fights...we speak together on the streets but don't act like we used to....

Pity....

Still, Amber had a lovely time.....although for a fitness freak like her, having a cake and champagne party like we did....well....she felt the sugar rush sickness for a couple of days...

Funny!!

Amber and Jenny, her partner, have spent the week in Portugal - weather hitting the 20's, by all accounts, and just chilling out and relaxing. About time too!!

The kids are great.....although I am pregnant, so with added 'bump' coming, I have cut back on my coke useage and my cigarettes....and from all the working out with "Insanity" that I have done last year I feel much more healthier and active....

That is good!!!!

So.....enjoying the sunshine and the gardens here; luckily my kids are much preferring the outdoors, don't sulk and don't want to play on computers or tablets or any of that shit; Mark and I don't agree with that stuff.....kids should be out and about running around, playing and learning....

Thankfully they think more of dolls or footballs (soccer to you Americans!) than techknowledgy.... and that's how we hope to keep it!

The sun is out and that's their playing field....

Work is going great!!! Lots of punters and lots of nice seamen going into that already knocked up cunt of mine!!! Making lots of money and getting off at the same time? What's not to love? Lol!!

So.....happy times!!!

;-)

Martika xx

Hooking...

Mark got up early to get ready for work, he looked over to me, noticed I was still awake, smiled and said "Hi baby.."

I smiled back, throat dry but managed to squeak out a "Hi" back...

I lay in bed smiling to myself; the kids were still asleep and me and my man had a nice time last night...

I heard feet creep upstairs....armed with a coffee, Mark handed it over to me and whispered "Hey, Martika babe, c'mon downstairs...."

I got up, took a few sips of coffee, threw on my robe and slippers and as he led me by the hand, down the stairs to the back bay window.....Mark pulls back the blinds in a 'Ta Daaaaa' kinda way and reveals......

It's been snowing!

Wow! Looks romantic!

He has his arm around, as I do him, me whilst sipping my coffee and him eating his toast, whilst staring out the window.......

Lost in space....just feeling so damn happy.....

Mark then left to get his stuff together - shower and things -

I had a cigarette and just relaxed....

We kissed on the doorstep and I waved him off to work....nobody else was out....bwwwwrrrrhhhhh! Cold out.....

I called down April who helped with Jasmin and Sue whilst I got Miya ready for school. We chatted...we talked silly stuff, me and Miya, and she was ready....

I got April to get up Candy and to get her breakfast sorted - vodka and toast - and I took Miya to school....In normal clothes again! Still feel strange about that....

When I got back home and sat around the table talking to April on how bitch got on. April thought that she did ok, on her first night as a prostitute, but she was a big tearful....

"Candy, luv, I own you. You do what the fuck I want, ok? Act like a bitch and I will kick the fuck out of you! As April, I have beaten the shit outta her over the time..."

April nods "But I deserved it, Boo, did't I? I wasn't respecting you, and that's wrong..."

"So.....?"

"So I got my ribs broken and my face punched. Candy, you listen to your owner, girl. You do whatever she says. It's important. You disrespect her you're disrespecting me as well...Girl, this is your new life now. Get over it, get used to it!"

Candy gulped.

I asked her, politely, to take a few hits of coke....to which she dutifully does. April smiles as Candy does a few lines.....

April and I do a few lines ourselves....

The rest of the day is involved in sorting stuff out in the house...domestic stuff...

In the evening I await for Mark to come home, all dressed casual like in jeans and a top, and we have a meal together.....talking about his day and our day; nothing really exciting here, although Miya's school were umming and arring over whether they would stay open or not...the crazy thing about the UK, a bit of snow and the whole infrastructure falls to pieces...

So....after some time relaxing it's time to get ready for work; April sorts out Candy in one of the en suite bathrooms whilst I do in another.....

I relax.....feel better looking like this; a cheap slag....leather micro mini, fishnets, over knee boots, top....and jewellery? Oh god, I miss all of that shit! Naturally I put my makeup on heavily and, looking in the mirror to admire myself as I finish off my cigarette, I smile.....this is the real me....this is me at my happiest.....

The slut - Candy join me in their finery, eager to please me with her slut looks...I nod in confirmation that she did good.....

As Candy take care of the kids, Mark and I fulfill my....ahem....usual routine; him fucking me hard, bent over the furniture, and cuming inside me....feeling his spunk run down my legs....as I get our coats, get the bitch to do more lines of coke, before heading out for our night hooking....

Obviously I kiss Mark passionately on the doorstep and we head off, April already out early - I always make her go early....

I offer a cigarette to Candy, lighting her up. She smokes now like a natural and tells me that she will do her best tonight.

Good....

April is getting out of a car as we get to our spot, she hurriedly comes over to kiss Candy and I on the cheeks and lights up a cigarette herself....

We chat a bit.....April is cold....but putting on a brave face...

Soon a car comes, we push Candy forward....and she starts her night...

The girls do good.....fuck, I do good too! Although it's snowing there's guys that are eager to fuck us sluts on the street....

I chat to mum and Amber a bit, thanking her for her help the other night...

When the night finishes, Candy has done alright money wise, April? I don't really have to worry about that bitch.....that slag does good!

As I head home with Candy, April walks with Jen and Amber.....they always have a crazy drink and drug fueled lesbian threesome every Friday....

Candy asks how she is doing......she's worried.

I tell her that she's ok.....but more hard work to come....

Martika xx

Date ......

So, last night I felt a little more composed about things....

First thing first, Mark's never seen me really in regular clothes before, only the 24/7 slut mode, or perhaps the odd wedding we've gone to...

So yesterday morning he was still saying that it '..blew his mind...' to have me dressed 'normally'! Y'see, understated DOES work sometimes!

So, the evening I had my hair up and wore a simple off shoulder black dress, a light makeup and less jewellery.....I certainly looked different...certainly FELT different!

Not sure if 'different' and me will make instant bed fellows but I'm game to try at the moment.....anything to keep my hubby, right?

Right!

So.....I acted charming.....and relaxed....

We went to have a meal out first; Mexican.....that was nice!

We laughed and joked and, y'know, it began to seem like we were just on a date together, that the 9 years had gone back.....we ENJOYED it,y'know?

Then we walked, arm in arm, over to the cinema and caught a late night showing of the new Oz movie....really good, I loved it! Mark nicked all my popcorn, mind, but it was a really lovely night....

Later, when we got in and sent the babysitter home?

We made love like we hadn't in years....love...lust....tenderness...and lots of smiles.....

I didn't sleep a wink..... Too busy staring at the man I love.....

:-)

Martika xx

New Day , New Look , New Me

I had a plan when I woke up yesterday morning, sending off Mark to work...

Sorting out the kids, April took them over to my mum's whilst I phoned up Amber to arrange to go out on a shopping assignment; to get me looking different!

So, I head over to Amber's place....get a big hug off of both Jen and Amber and Amber sorts out some clothes for me to wear to go out shopping..

Meanwhile she's rocking that body with her workout....can you believe she ordered me to shower and get rid of all that '....crap you put on your face...' ? Thanks Amber!

So, after a bite to eat, a protein shake and then shower and change, Amber set about my clothes and makeup....making me look a bit more regular....

Not sure about the makeup....never wore so little for ages! But the dress? Really nice....

So.....we hit the shops. The plan was that I should be more regular during everyday.....and my normal hooker look for work....

Amber certainly thinks that this is a good idea....

So.....a whole day hitting the shops, trying stuff on, taking it off, feeling so-so about stuff but buying it anyways.....

Amber was hard to please! Why the heck did I pick her to do this with?

Because she's young, quite trendy and thinks it'll work on my man! That's why!

So, armed with a handful of dresses - red and black ones - tops, skirts and jackets....I spent a fortune! A bloody fortune!

So, I treat her to lunch.....then get her to carry my bags home with me!

:-)

So, I get home, change into a nice pair of jeans (jeans? I've never wore any since I was 15!) and a top....subtle look...

So, sorting out the kids and Mark comes home and the first thing he says is

"Wow, you look different!" Before smiling and kissing me....

:-)

That's nice but he's still planning on going out with Emma...

Karen comes over, complete with mum, as she's babysitting as me and mum head off to start work....

She asks me about my day and what's been happening. I tell her I feel a little better, explaining about my shopping trip....

She's happy....

I'm relieved....right! Mind on work....

Martika xx

Conversation With My Creator ....

.....my mum.

Yesterday I went over to chat to mum....I kinda realised that I had lots of issues, from the past, that I wanted to talk through....

.....and what with mum being a counsellor too, well, it might just shed some light on my issues.....

So.....with some trepidation I went to see her, having asked her initially to read my last blog posting, just to get her up to speed on things....

Mum hugged me and kissed me at the door....

We sat and chatted....

Mum did apologise for leaving me with dad, all those years ago....she said it was out of her hands, that my dad took me away from her to start divorce proceedings....

That I can understand....

"Look, top trumps time, luv. Your big hero was Sue, my mum, right? You wanted to be like her, right? Heck, I wanted to be like her too!"

"So, Sue; early 50's when she died. She smoked 60 cigarettes every day, drank 2 litres of vodka a day....and a bottle of brandy too. Drugs? About 10 grams of coke every day, god knows how much smack. 5 ft 4", that was her life!"

"Look in finer detail; you ever seen her shake first thing in the morning? Because she's not had drink or drugs? You seen her throw up? You know she had lots of sexually transmitted diseases because she was too fucked up to use rubbers on her punters? You know that she's had lots of abortions? You know she never slept properly in her life?"

"Just look at you, girl; trying so hard to be like her! Me? Shit, I tried! Smoking? No? Drink? No, but I did my best on coke! And, y'know what? It fucked me up! It nearly tore my soul apart, no lie. And, of course, physically I was just so unhealthy."

"You? Just look at you today; all you need is a sign around your neck is 'I'm Available!'. Geez, why do you always dress like this?"

Ok.....true. I guess I like to look like a slag all the time. That's just me...

"But what about you? You dress like that too! Stop fuckin' having a go at me about the way that I dress!!" I angrily snapped back...

"Darlin', I've always dressed like this; this is me! I dressed like this from the time I was at school - I was THE slutty teenager! Ha! This is me, this is how I am. I'm comfortable in my own skin. You? I remember you as a jeans and t-shirts girl. You only dressed like this when you became a hooker.."

"You're really trying so hard to be like someone that died from her lifestyle, y'know? Sorry to upset you like that, babe, but facts are facts; Sue never had a proper relationship, did she? Went from one person to another.....never any long-term relationships. She was rubbish as a lover; nobody could cope with her lifestyle!"

"Now, look at you; you're married, been so for 9 years, had a great relationship. You have great kids, three of them. You're not her, you're YOU! So.....start being like you!"

We talked about other things too....private things.....but we left, both a bit tearful, both - I hope - feeling a bit better....

It put to bed some thoughts and feelings....left some others dangling....

Tonight, Mark and Emma are going out on a date....

Me? I'll be working but I'll be putting my life back in order....

Martika xx

Nightmare Epiphany ...

Strange....

So, there I was in the back of a punter's car getting a good ol' banging when I had a brainwave....an epiphany....

I think I've never got over the fact that I felt abandoned by my mum....

Up to the age of 3 there was only me and her, then dad came into our lives....and then the divorce and splitting up when I was 5.....

And I've never forgiven her for that. That prostitution split up our family....that prostitution made mum keep away....

In some ways I am, I guess, trying to get my own back on her....being a heavier drinker and drugger......being more debauched and making her upset over the years....

Trying to hurt her.....

I mean, it's fucked right? Mum's been hooking for near on 30 years now; she does her thing, protects her mates, is friendly, and yes, I know 'cos I hear so much, that she's a damn good fuck....that comes with looking after yourself and your personality....

So I'm trying to fast-track to the top?

In other words.....stop trying so hard...

Mum told me, actually many times over the years, that I'm a normal girl around my dad....I always thought that that was me pretending and the hooker me was the 'real' me....now I'm wondering if it is indeed the other way around.....

So.....that's been on my mind all night.....

Martika xx

Welcome To My Nightmare ....

Well......*sigh*

I came home after working my corner last night and Mark was up. The kids were in bed. I felt really beat....ha! Emotionally I was just gone.....

He made me a drink and sat down a while, just friendly talking y'know? I felt him stare intently into my eyes. What were we talking about? Oh, just this and that....

We went to bed, as per usual with his hand on my bottom as he followed me up....

We lay in bed...we kissed....we cuddled....I told him I was sorry for about the millionth time....he just shushed me by putting a finger to my lips....we made love....really tenderly...and chatted...

I asked him about going out, just the two of us, on the Wednesday....would be nice to have a date night....enjoy ourselves etc.....like our earlier days....

His reply was that he was taking Emma out that night....

I nearly died inside......sure that tears were filling my eyes....I sniffed...and asked about Thursday....I felt his face smile - I was touching his cheek - and he agreed that was good....

Whilst he slept ok, I didn't sleep much; too much on my mind. Too many people's messages echoing through my head.....but I did get some.

Daytime came, I was awoken by the sound of a clinking of a cup of coffee that Mark had made for me and then the sound of the kid's door opening. Suzanne was crying but quickly stopped....Mark was sorting her out.....

I threw a robe on my naked body, grabbed the coffee and went to the kid's door....standing in the doorway like some sexy slut that's emotionally drained but trying her best to look enticing, I smiled at the interaction between Mark and Suzanne....

He was mostly dressed already. I helped him with his tie and made him some toast for breakfast....and,within 20 mins he was gone....kissing me goodbye though.....

The morning was a bit of a blur.....getting ready to take Miya to school and dropping her off.... Then back home.....

I lost count of how many hits of coke I did......or indeed cigarettes I smoked or coffee drank......

I decided on something. Look the best I can, get the kids over to mum's and have a chat with Emma.....

I cried buckets in the shower.....I felt alone.....helpless....vulnerable....

I was in there a long time....then I got myself ready....then the kids. I text mum, telling her I was coming over.....then, likewise, to Emma....

Mum greeted me at the door with a big hug.....we had a quick chat and I told her I was going over to Emma's.......

Emma is one of mum's very best friends, having had her under her wing when she very first started.....

Mum gave me a knowing glance and reminded me that she was there for me....

I know mum......and thanks.....

Deep breath before knocking on Emma's door....first thing first; I was not there to start a fight with her....no fighting....

Emma gave a half smile "Good because you'd kick my arse!"

She invited me in.......she look glam, as usual....well.....slut glam anyways. That's the thing about us, we both really went out of the way to look as slutty as possible even if we were on our own at home....

She made me a coffee, making one herself, and we settled down, both cradling lit cigarettes, and talked though things.....

"Babe, you know I really do love you. I do, I really do. You know I fancied Mark for absolute ages too.....before you and him got together, y'know? We're friends, or at least have been.....but I've also been mates with Mark too..."

She paused.... "An', before you say or think anything, Mark has not cheated on you with me before, ok? He's never, to my knowledge, ever cheated on you before. Like I said before, babe, he's a keeper...."

"Then why the fuck are you doing this to me? To us?" I ask angrily..

"Baby doll, it takes two to tango, know what I'm sayin'? It's not just me...."

"Look, Mark has had to deal with an awful lot of crap from you over the years.....and like I said, I had been there for you....but likewise I've been a shoulder for him to cry on too; I get everything....I hear the lot...and, y'know, he has really suffered...."

"Look at yourself; you're really wrapped up in yourself....all to do with your reputation. Ha! You are so wrapped up in being like your grandmother, lord rest her soul, and being like her....being so fuckin' bad asses that you just go full tilt on that, regardless of the effect on the rest of your family...."

"When you were getting pissed every day, how do you think that Mark felt over that? Having you with the kids....loaded all the time? He was shit scared! You? You jus thought it was so fuckin' cool! Well, as you've learned, it isn't! Stop being like your Sue, start being your own person!"

"I bet you've been hitting the coke hard today,eh? Well, I can't blame you with what happened....but you're just a real coke head!"

We argued, verbally, back and forward......

I told her that I hated her doing this, not showing respect to me.....not thinking about my family.....using Mark to score points....

"Look, luv, Mark adores you.....he really does. Me? He likes me. It's more than sexual for me. We're gonna date and see where it goes, but I warn you that I ain't stop....truth is that you own his heart, you just didn't realise or respect that. You have to show your worth to woo him back. Good luck, but I'm working on keeping him for myself! No more orgies or gangbangs...."

We agreed to disagree......I agreed not to kick her arse....

I went back home, picking up the kids.....

I have a lot of shit to wade though.....I need to be a better 'me'.....no pretence....no bullshit....just gotta be myself....find myself....and love myself....

Thanks for everyone's support....

Martika xx

My Worst Nightmare Comes True ....

Flashbacks.....

That's what I keep getting....what I keep having...

My mind wonders....skips even....from one moment to another..

All intense emotions....

I brought it on myself....

Flashback!

I'm starting to have an affair with my husband's old friend, Paul. I'm excited and in one part I am TOTALLY loving this....on another I am so doing wrong. But, my feelings in a more southerly direction dictate that I continue on the path that I am....


Flashback!

Summer just last year, I'm working the streets and have a lull between punters. My best mate Emma is free too....she's chewing her gum whilst I light up another cigarette...we shoot the shit...

"Y'know, your Mark is such a hottie....and a keeper!"

"Yep, he is!" I say smugly....

Emma's had a thing about Mark since we first got together....still, I got him, didn't I?


Flashback!

I've finished working the streets and I am home....the kids are asleep and Mark is inside me...fucking me....fucking me hard. I tell him about me and Paul fucking and I fuck him back....I use his emotions to get permission to continue to fuck Paul....which I do get...


Flashback!

I come home after finishing with Paul, after a pretty shitty time, come home and Miya, our daughter, telling me that daddy is crying...

That hurts....we talk....well, he talks and I listen....

"It'd be like me going and fucking around on you with Emma. How would you feel about that?"

"We'll, I would be shocked.....and devastated!" I answer....

We chat. I apologise profusely over what I have done, wanting to make amends on what I have done...wanting my man happy and have a great future together...

Flashback!

Early Saturday morning, after we all did great on the 'Red Nose Day' charity collection, making £4000 for the charity. Feeling good about that....all going back to mum 's house and having some food and drink....and, yes in some cases, drugs and watching movies and just shooting the shit...

The kids are in bed....we're all talking and smoking and laughing....

Then.....without warning.....Mark gets up....helps Emma up....and they go upstairs together...

Deathly silence....

Mum cuts the frost in the room by chatting....she's like that my mum....trying to take my mind off of things....

Mark has never done that before!

If people know anything about these parties then they'll know that sex DOES happen at times....usually Tim, Deb's hubby, wanting to shag someone....and sometimes from Amber wanting to fuck April or Emma....

But Mark? No, he's never cheated on me. I'm the cheater!

An hour or so later they come down stairs, Emma like the cat who got the cream....well...she did....

My heart sank....

The rest of the morning really really dragged. Going home, complete with kids, Mark and I had some stilted conversations....

We sorted out the kids, then we went to bed for an hour or two....we make love...he's inside me and telling me about Emma....he's banging me hard and telling me that Emma would stop her gang bangs if he and her got together.....

I'm too in the moment.....about ready to cum....

The bastard!

But I did the same to him, didn't I?

Flashback!

Last night, working my beat.... Emma's on the streets too....she's very happy. She offers me a cigarette and lights me up....I don't know what to think or do...I just accept.

We chat a bit.....

Things have changed.....

Sure, I work......I get laid.....but my heart's not in it....

Me and Mark fuck when I get back home....


I feel numb.....and heart broken.....

Martika xx

Annoying !

So, there I am, in all my finery....as per usual, there's no difference really between Martika during the daytime and Streetwalker Martika during the night time; I am as I am and I like to look sexy!

So.....not a bad day, weather wise, and I wear a lil light jacket and my puppies on display...the usual, like I said....

I'm out with Jasmin and Suzanne is in the pushchair, we're heading towards the school to pick up Miya. Again, nothing new there....I usually do....

So I come walking past these girls, must be early twenties if not a day. They're there to pick up their kids too, I guess. So I walk by, smiling , and I hear....

"Fuck! Who does that slag think she is?"

I'm annoyed....but keep composed....or...at least try to....

So we pick up Miya....I give her a hug and kiss, we have a little giggle, before we walk past these idiots again...

Miya points at the boy who's acting all shy now...

"That's Martin, he's nawty. He keeps saying rude things about you mum...I told him that you'd easy beat up his mum..."

I glare at the kid....then it's poor excuse for a mother....and snarl..

"Oh, easily darlin', easily...."

Before continuing on my way home....

I am angry today and this mum was inches away from me ripping her spine out....

Martika xx

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Punters ....., posted December 13th, 2012
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